❤️

My love!
The worst pain is having no contact with you, the one I'm still in love with, who at one point in time, sent me messages that would make my heart melt. And now, I can only love you in silence from a distance. Slowly being forced to close a chapter I never wanted to end.

When you died, it changed my whole life forever. It's not something I "get over". Your loss now becomes a part of who I am. The moment your heart stopped beating and mine began to hurt. The moment your iceblue eyes closed forever and mine filled with tears. I miss you incredibly.

My dearest Joachim!
When I'm sad, you are the first person I want to talk to. But I'm sad because of your absence, so I can't talk to anyone. If I could live my life over again, I would find you sooner so I can love you longer.
Jag saknar dig! ❤️ Jag älskar dig!

I believe and feel
that you still exist - somewhere,
that you still watch me - sometimes,
that you still love me - somehow,
that life has meaning - somehow,
that I need to stay here - for some time,
that all this teaches me - something,
so that I can meet you again - somewhere.

Yesterday I visited you twice. Once at your old place, once at your new place. Death ends your life, but not our relationship. All the love we created is still here. All the memories are still here. You live on in my heart which you have touched and nurtured while you were here.

Min kära Joachim!
It's in the quiet I miss you the most. When my mind has the chance to wander and my heart has the moment to remember. I remember my first day being without you. I've never been the same. I don't just lose you once. I lose you every day, for a lifetime.

My dear Joachim!
To me, you and your love can't be replaced. No one thing or person can fill that void that is left. No matter what, regardless the time that goes by
I still love you
I still miss you
I still wish you were here.
Love doesn't end.
That's why grief doesn't either.

At first I counted the hours, then the days, then the weeks, then the months. I'm not sure if I will have enough strength to count the years.
Min kära Joachim, how do I live without you? It's simple - I have yet not live without you. You are always still with me. All my life.

There was a heart touching funeral for you. It was the one you deserve, they say.
But you deserve to live, to enjoy life, to share laughters and time with the boys and your family. You deserve to get old and grey. And finally even more later, you deserve a hearttouching funeral.

Time and distance have been nothing to us for the last 18 years! You will stay in my heart until we see each other again! I promised you ❤️⚓️❤️ thank you for all the beautiful moments ⚓️

Vila i frid. Basker av.
Vi hade 10 sköna månader på Gotland.

Jag tyckte väldigt mycket om dig Jocke. Både stilfull, lugn och rolig. 🌹❤️

I have a rendezvous with Death
At midnight in some flaming town,
When Spring trips north again this year,
And I to my pledged word am true,
I shall not fail that rendezvous.

Vi ses Sgt. Nestor.

Vila i frid Nestor. Tack för fina minnen orädda hundtämjaren.

Vila i frid Joche! Tänker på dig!

My mind still talks to you.
My heart still looks for you.
But my soul knows you are at peace!

Jag älskar dig, Joachim Åke Nestor, my sweet swedish king!

Min kära Joachim!
Our last goodbye was never said! There is just a farewell! Farewell is not for ever! Farewell is not the end! It simply means I'll miss you until we meet again... You will say: "Hej, hur mår du?" and smile and the pieces of my broken heart will be fixed again.

Tack Jocke för många skratt ihop och inte minst snack om historia.

Vi har delat många skratt. Sov gott Joche...

Jocke, med värme kommer jag ihåg ditt glada och omtänksamma sätt. Vila i frid. ❤️

Vila i frid Jocke 🕊️
All kärlek & omtanke till familjen ❤️
Benny & Erika m fam

Jochen! Din tid på jorden blev för kort. Kommer minnas vår vänskap med glädje och värme. I minnet bor du kvar ♥️